Libra :: Wednesday, Dec 30th, 2009 — This may be quite an enjoyable day for you if you are able to keep your feelings to yourself. The problem is that you have something important to say and you might not want to put it off. But once you start talking, you could quickly work yourself into such an emotional state that you become less effective in getting your message across. You can avoid being the victim of your own passions by using as few words as possible.

right again.

i didn’t expect to wake up to rain falling outside the window this morning. i know rain on the fourth of july sounds awful to most people, but i couldn’t have been happier. it was such a great way to wake up after last night. really, everything about last night was pretty great. i’ve got this really good feeling going on, and i’d really like to keep it around.

it feels like i’ve been staying in more lately. i just haven’t really felt like going out, but i don’t think i could afford my nights out right now if i wanted to anyways. i thought i would have more money this way, but i’m still broke. these past few weeks have been a little slow on the money for me. but that’s okay, i’ve got enough, and it does me good to stay in. music and books can keep me entertained for days, i don’t even need to see anyone else.

but it was good that i got out last night. everything happens for a reason. 

and now after i throw in some laundry and take a quick nap the sun will go down and i can make my way down riverside tripping and stumbling to see friends and fireworks and musica. it is going to be a good night.

just a movin to the groovin’

Went to Mikey’s last night and made some new friends last night and hung out with some old. Then again, everyone felt like an old friend. Singing and dancing and movin’ and groovin’ and running around everywhere our eyes could see. We kept the song going into the morning and then I made my way home and sang myself to sleep.

cloud nine is an understatement

I’m so sorry my dear tumblr, I always seem to neglect you. But the good news is that this post is a happy one, because right now I am one very happy girl. These past fews weeks have been incredible. Getting to see old and new friends and hear good music every night, my first trip to California and Coachella, going to the river and finding new parks and just being outside in this amazing weather, and then this one person in particular who has kept a smile on my face. I’m not used to everything going so.. right. But I’m definitely enjoying it. Hmm, so what have I been doing lately? The nights go together too easily sometimes. Got back from a great trip to California just in time for 4/20, and celebrated it at Pat and Meg’s baking some cookies with the homies and before going to the Wailers show. Amazing show made even better by all of the friends I got to see. Put in a lot of time at the Colony with Hannah and Cayse. I’m in love with their new patio. I seem to be spending a lot of time on patios lately. I honestly think every bar should have one. I don’t think there is a time that I am happier than when I’m sitting on an outoor patio in warm spring weather drinking a beer with friends and listening to good music. Maybe if I could smoke a bowl of some good nug too. Which is exactly what happens at the Colony? Other nights spent a little time between Capella’s and Tiny’s and some other random places. Had a good time with some friends last night at Empire for $1 PBR’s before meeting up with Seth at Oscar’s. I don’t know how I could have had a better time. And now I have an hour before I have to head to work for the night. I wish I was in the car right now on the way to the Norman Music Festival with Mandi, Mikey, and Rachel to hear some good music and have a few cold beers, but I’m really hurting for the dollas. Or I will be if I keep this spending up. So tonight I will be responsible. Or as responsible as you can be at Fuji’s. Sometimes I feel like I go an hour or two without doing any real work. But at least it is a good time. I just need that good time to start making me MONEY! I have other good times I need to spend it on.

Sitting in a cafe wasting some time before I have to go into work tonight. I don’t keep up with this thing as much as I thought I would. How long has it been? Thirteen days? Feels like longer. The past two weeks have been a blur, and a very enjoyable one.

Damn, my time on the wifi here is up. I’ll edit this laterrr\

caf-fiend.

This coffee isn’t working the way I hoped it would. I still can’t focus, as table after table of people sit down and leave, sit down and leave. I should be studying, not people watching. But it is hard to concentrate with all of these conversations going on around me. A husband ranting to his friend about his conniving wife, a mother talking about her daughter getting suspended from school for taking pills. Another mother helping her daughter practice reading with the label on the potato chips bag. Workers on break, complaining about hours and rude customers. Couples silently fighting, saying everything they need to with their body language. At this rate, I’ll never be able to focus. My textbook is still open to the same page it was an hour ago. Maybe I should have another cup of coffee.

snowed?

Yesterday it was rain on my window, today it is snow. I like it a lot more than I thought I would, even though my apartment won’t stay warm. I opened up my blinds when I woke up two hours ago and I’ve been watching the snow fall steadily ever since. I heard thunder a few times but the sky is too white to see the storm clouds. Every so often I think about how unappealing the thought of uncovering my car from a sheet of ice and snow before work is going to be, but I don’t really feel like caring about it yet. That’s hours from now, and right now nature is looking pretty incredible.

Snow means I’m not going to make any money at work, again. Last night it was slow because of the rain. I didn’t even have a table after 8pm. All we did was sit around, stand around, drink, and smoke. Which made us eat, and then stand around and talk some more. By then end of the night I only had sixty dollars to show for it, but the night still didn’t seem too wasted. But really, I need to start making money soon or I’m not going to be able to afford all of the things I had in mind. I’ll be broke as a joke.

// edit. So a few minutes ago I got a text from Mark saying Fuji be closed tonight. No work for me. His text had good timing, because just a few minutes before I had remembered that my car was at the bottom of the same impossible snow covered hill that tried to destroy it last time, so I didn’t have a ride to work after all. I hadn’t been that worried about it then, and now I no longer have a reason to be. This is working out pretty good. I just wish I hadn’t left the book I was reading at work last night.

I woke up to a perfectly dim room with the rain hitting my window. I don’t think I’ve left my apartment in twenty-four hours. Except to go change over my laundry. Other than responding to a few texts from Katy, I don’t think I’ve talked to anyone either. I hadn’t really thought about it until now. I feel like I’ve been in some kind of euphoric daze, for no real reason at all.

early in the late night

The rainy morning turned into to beautiful day, and I got more done than I expected. Or maybe I got as much done as I planned to do, which was still unexpected. Oil changes, picking up parts, battery checks, washed and vaccuumed my car, cleared some things up at TCC, made some appointments, worked out, and put in some study time at a coffee shop and later at a little table by the river before taking a nap around 6pm. Woke up around 10pm, studied some more and took a shower. Now I should probably get back to that studying. Only three more chapters. Eighty pages. And the study guides for seven chapters before trying to get some more sleep before going to work at 10am. After work I’ll have 2-3 hours to study before my test at 6pm, and then I have until 10am Thursday to learn everything I need to know before my Humanities test, which is going to be more or less impossible with all of the material covered. Whateva, I’m doing good so far. I just need to keep it up.

in the morning

I’ve never been good about getting up on time on rainy days. I shouldn’t have turned music on. Between this song playing, a nice bowl of maryj, and the rain on my window, I don’t see how it could possibly be a good idea to get up. I should have called the AAA guy thirty minutes ago to come jump my car. I should probably get up and get dressed, too. And then there is going to pick up the parts for my car and a new battery before going to class. Well, that might have to wait until after class. Then all of the studying I need to do tonight. All of these things I don’t feel like thinking about. Not yet. I have ten minutes until I have no choice but to get up. I won’t be able to put it off any longer.

But right now ten minutes feels like all the time in the world.